Friday, March 4, 2011

Pack Rat

Ok so I've realized that I save waaayyy too many things. Shit that in my mind I think I'm gonna use or need later on, but never do. And lately I've been doing that a lot with Twitter and Tweets from people I think are funny. So I decided to blog all of them so I don't look like a stalker lol.
Project2G:
*If Costco is just a grocery store on steroids, then Wal-Mart is just a 7-Eleven with type 2 diabetes. (March 3)
*Next time someone says "I don't know whether to laught or cry," kick the in the shin really hard so they'll know for sure. (March 3)
*I hate the KKK as much as anyone, but it is neat that they introduced "hoodies" to American fashion. (March 3)
*The dude next to e at Starbucks keeps trying to hide his iPad screen from me. Like I care that his password is bieberfever10. (March 2)
*Don't tell me the best things in life are free and then get angry when I steal your iPod #smh
*The Microsoft Word paperclip guy should advise e in real life. "Looks like you're ordering one more drink. Don't."
*Id tell you that your cool but that would be a lie.
*#isturnedonby a girl who knows what she wants in life
*rt @YeahImAshley Why is "porn" not a standard button on keyboards yet?
*You couldnt swallow the drip #thatswhyyouryex
*Im tired of donating my money to the ocsd.. Orange County Sheriff Department
*Mike-shiit not to be fuck wit. Muthafucka betta duck quick..cuzz me & my dogs love 2 buck shit, fuck the luck shit strictly aim #tweetalyric
*It's an everyday thang when you let ya nuts hang, #tweetalyric
*If I could rearrange the alphabet, I'd put you between F and CK
*Why is it that when you deliver something by car its a shipment and when you deliver something by ship its cargo? #randomthought
*is wondering why driveways are driveways and parkways are parkways when you park on a driveway and drive on a parkway
*...is updating his status to let you know his status is that he has no status
*A word to the wise ain't necessary - it's the stupid ones that need the advice
*Do you believe in love at first sight? Or should I walk by again?
*I'm looking for treasure, so can I see your chest?
*What happens if you get scared half to death twice? #randomthought
*If your wife asks for "space", leave her outside
*When I want your opinion, I'll remove the duct tape.
*#Imoldenough to know you need to shut your fuckin mouth
*Every day above ground is a good day
Me: I love how ppl say, "hey I'll call u back" And they never call back. But they have all the time in world to do other things, stupid shit. *@CoquetteKM thats me lol. I do that shit
*I love pasta
*If I can hear ur ricey honduh over my stereo somethins wrong #IHateHonduh
*Time for dub step #headbangershit
*Just took some ecstacy.. No tellin what the side effects can be..
*I always misread "Marital Status" as "Martial Status" on forms. Which confuses me weven more when there isn't a "Ninja" check box.
*I'd damn you to hell, but I work there and don't want to see you 5 days a week.
*I just saved a bunch of money on my car insurance by fleeing the scene of an accident
*No one has twittered in 6 months. I can only assume that all of my friends are dead.
*Life would be easier if you could ark people as  spam.
*rt @moorsee dance like nobody's watching. Tweet like nobody's following
*If guns kill people, then spoons make people fat. #randomthought
*Good morning twitter world
*"At a cemetery, looking for my name on tombstones. This is the Goth version of Googling yourself."
*Time 2 take my #pug to get his nails cut #carridetime
*It's amazing that even 20 years later, pretending to shoot heroin with an mechanical pencil can still be a great way to procrastinate.
*I won't believe the Groundhog saw his shadow until he updates his Facebook status #facebookisdead
*rt @bubblebathos all restaurants are drive-thru if you drive hard enough
*#Egypt. #Palin.  #Walmart. #Facebook. #KE$HA. #Bieber. Typos. Snow. Zombies. Superpowers. FFs. Your mom. Boom, I just won #Twitter.
*Blood is thicker than water, but maple syrup is thicker than blood. So pancakes are more important than family. There, I said it.
*Just so you know, people who don't give a fuck don't talk about how much they don't give a fuck all the fucking time.
*2005 mustang gt..20,000 dollars..chrome rims ..500 dollars ..dual exhaust 437 dollars..getting rolled up by a dsm from the 90's priceless
*"Just saw TV weatherman say "It's  a good thing we turn clocks ahead; one less hour of nasty weather." Dude it's DST, NOT time travel, OK?"
*Give a an a fish, he'll eat for a day. Teach a man to fish, he'll eat  for life. Give an octopus nunchuks, no one's eating fish ever again.
*Marijuana common Side effects: Trouble remembering things; Sleepiness; Anxiety Paranoia, Altered time perception
Me: @Project2G Well look who it is lol  *@CoquetteKM lol.. Bored at work  Me:@Project2G Awe babe im sorry ... would u like to be entertained?  *@CoquetteKM always down for entertainment


AQUARIUS
*If you are an insecure and jealous woman you won't keep your #Aquarius an very long.
*An #Aquarius unemotional way of looking at life can make comunication with the a bit difficult at times.
*As an #Aquarius Your hardheadedness is one of the strengths that you enjoy most about yourself
*#Aquarius main problem is they tend to live in a world of ideas and concepts rather than reality
*#Aquarius may even end up being disappointed emotionally because they tend to expect more out of others than may be reasonable
*#Aquarius keep to themselves and don't speak about their problems very easily
*#Aquarius, when losing their detached point of view about something, can become negative
*#Aquarius may seem cool, but they are levitating over a sea of emotion that threatens to engulf the if they look down
*Aquarius are the best
*An #Aquarius can be the worst enemy you ever met entire life or the most trusted, best ever friend. Your choice!
*#Aquarius love freedom. The more you take from them, the higher the chance they move away..
*But most of the time, it's hard for an #Aquarius to get a move on things.
*People say #Aquarius are freaky in bed. Are they?
*Sometimes, an #Aquarius already know bout something. They just pretend they don't know just to chill you up
*There are 2 #Aquarius types: 1st is shy, gentle, patient and sensitive and the 2nd is a lively exhibitionist
*#Aquarius are the truth-seekers - They live through liberating
*#Aquarius loves "Freedom" so before and after marriage, their freedom has to be the same
*#Aquarius women will keep you at arm's length if you are very special to her. Not close, but close enough.
*#Aquarius are free wheeling, open-minded, unconventional & sexually liberated
*An #Aquarius feels despaired when things don't go according to plan
*#Aquarius signs are strong willed, forceful and have strong convictions
*#Aquarius are progressive, stimulating, and independant
*No matter how close #Aquarius get to their partner - There's always a part they reserve for theselves
*While #Aquarius are watching TV or enjoying great movies, their ind can be somewhere else..
*#Aquarius will help you in many ways to make your ideas successful without asking any credit
*As an #Aquarius, do you mostly give a damn about your parents' opinion on anything?
*QUESTION for#AquariusGirls: would you date a younger guy?
*I hate how #Pisceans are so intrusive on #Aquarians' privacy
*Get outside today #Aquarius. No matter what the weather! Have fun.
*To keep an Aquarius and Pisces love math strong, the #Pisces partner will need to provide enough space and freedom for an #Aquarius
*Two #Aquarius in a relationship tend to intellectualize rather than feel their feelings
*#Aquarius and #Capricorn have it going on for mental and emotional compatibility
*Together an #Aquarius and #Sagittarius love match can take on the world. This relationship is hot, hot and hot.
*For an #Aquarius to be "simple" is a complicated task.
*An #Aquarius is a very dedicated, committed and headstrong person
*In the relationship a #Scorpio and #Aquarius being so fixated and strongly opinionated, they rarely make compromises.
*#Libra and #Aquarius connection will be based more on a mental connection rather than deep instinctive feelings.
*A #Virgo and an #Aquarius compatibility match can be intellectually stimulating but romantically difficult.
*When an #Aquarius care too uch for the person they love, they sometimes forget to care about themselves. Duhh
*There's a mutual fascination between #Leo and #Aquarius that begins with light, friendly flirtation in the relationship.
*#Aquarius have strong opinions but are honest enough to change their opinions if there is enough evidence that they are wrong.
*#Aquarius interest in and sympathy for human problems win the respect and confidence of those about you
*In the relationship It''s hard to make a heartfelt connection with an #Aquarius, which iediately poses problems for a #Cancer
*Everything that an #Aquarius does will be different from how everyone else does it
#Gemini and #Aquarius fit more into the shoulder to lean on category than the hot, steamy affair category
*A #Taurus and #Aquarius compatibility match can be a tricky pairing when it comes to love
*In the relationship there won't be much routine for an #Aries and #Aquarius, and life may feel a little chaotic at times.
*#Aquarius can be activists whose causes may be more attractive than respectable~They're compelled to pursue & fight for freedom
*#Aquarius women love having men want her
*#Aquarius are not that patient
*#Aquarius think waiting for help is a wast of time. They do the shit themselves.
*#Aquarius are the best of friends in the worst of times ~ You can count on them to be with you when needed
*#Aquarius signs are real confident. This makes them good leaders.
*#Aquarius women think they can do anything a man can.
*#Aquarius will challenge their friends & lovers just to keep the on their toes
*#Aquarius need to express themselves in ways that distinguish them from others
*#Aquarius may be stubborn, but they know how to respect other people's opinions.
*#Aquarius will never dictate other people on what to do
*As an #Aquarius your true self shines through on paper, revealing a sensitive, passionate soul that surprises those around you.
*An #Aquarius female not interested in dwelling on the past or even the present. They look forward.
*Forward people win at life.
*#Aquarius are never willing to sacrifice their  autonomy, but will generally always put honesty ahead of romance
*As an #Aquarius few people actually know the real you, because you exist for so many people on different levels
*#Aquarius like to seek out people they feel are different, exciting, possibly eccentric, but nevertheless creative.
*In business and at work, #Aquarius are thinkers and planners, rather than doing the tasks themselves.
*#Aquarius live intensely in their minds ~ They're rational & objective in their judgement
*Aquarius has a deep need to satisfy their sex partner
*An #Aquarius will likely try something new in bed
*An #Aquarius hates not knowing why or what they're waiting for
*An #Aquarius only appreciates a wait if it's destined to go satisfied!
*An #Aquarius will likely try something new in bed. So if you have boring sex routines, Aquarius is not for you.
*When #Aquarius commit to another ~ They do it with their whole heart
*An #Aquarius will fuck your mind first. Then make you beg for more
*#Aquarius can be faithful for life
*It is important to realize how loyal #Aquarius women are cause it is not obvious She may not see you often but you're always on her mind
*If you date an #Aquarius, you must life their friends too
*#Aquarius men like confident women who are also good followers
*#Aquarius can be completely confusing and contrary, unpredictable in relationships
*An #Aquarius will want to deal with you in an abstract way such as phone or text rather than in person
*#Aquarius has ab ability to be flexible and so independent
*#Aquarius are filled with kindness and courtesy
*#Aquarius hate: Injustice, drama queens, feeling isolated, owing money or favors, having to choose just one thing
*An #Aquarius is likely to be absent a large portion of time, either mentally or physically
*An #Aquarius can ake brilliant contributions if allowed to do work their own way.
*#Gemini, #Libra and #Aquarius know a little about everything
*#Aquarius like long term relationships and epic love affairs
*#Aquarius do not like fighting but have a mean left hook if pushed
*#Aquarius is a seeker of knowledge and justice as well as being a sociable person
*If an #Aquarius is really and truly in love with you, they will never lie to you
*#Aquarius view of love is rather liberal; they gravitate toward a free relationship free of jealousy


That's about all I have energy for right now. That took a lot out of me. But I learned a lot about myself, and my fellow Aquarians. I still have a bunch to store in another Pack Rat blog .. but tomorrow is a new day

Good Night =)

Monday, February 28, 2011

Dreams - My teeth are falling out

Ok a few nights ago I felt like I dreamed a movie lol cuz thats what it felt like.
Lets see here: Giant, Ship (It wasn't wrecked or anything it had been washed ashore and had blended into the scenery as part of the cliffs), Beach, Waves, Under Water, Plant, Celebration, Sun, Warmth, Found missing stuff, and oh yea once again my Teeth were falling out.
*To see a giant in your dream, indicates a great struggle between you and your opponents. You are trying to overcome an overwhelming obstacle. Alternatively, a giant symbolizes an issue, a person or a feeling that is dominating you. You are having an inferiority complex.*
*To see a ship in your dream, denotes that you are exploring aspects of your emotions and unconscious. The state and condition of the ship is indicative of your emotional state. If you dream of a cruise ship, then it suggests pleasant moods. If you dream of a warship, then it means that you are experiencing feelings of aggression. To dream that a ship has crashed or sunk, suggests that you are feeling emotionally out of control. You are expressing some fear or uncertainly within your emotional state. You are afraid of losing something close to you because of certain difficulties.*
*To see the beach in your dream, symbolizes the meeting between your two states of mind. The sand is symbolic of the rational and mental processes while the water signifies the irrational, unsteady, and emotional aspects of yourself. It is a place of transition between the physical/material and the spiritual. To dream that you are on the beach and looking out toward the ocean, indicates unknown and major changes that are occurring in your life. Consider the state of the ocean, whether it is calm, pleasant, forbidding, etc.*
*To see clear, calm  waves in your dream, signify renewal and clarity. You are reflecting on some important life decision that needs to be made. Alternatively, if you are riding a wave, then it indicates that you are trying to get a handle on your emotions. Waves also symbolize potential and power.*
*To dream that you are underwater, suggests that you are being overcome with emotions and are in over your head regarding some situation. You need to gain greater control of your life.*
*To see plants in your dream, indicate fertility, spiritual development, potential, and growth. Alternatively,  the appearance of plants in your dream reflect your caring and loving nature. If you are estranged from your children, then the plants can be seen as representative for your children.*
*To dream of a celebration, represents your achievement toward a higher level of growth. This may also be a self-congratulatory  dream for the goals you have achieved and for the recognition you have gained. You may also be honoring some victory, success, or accomplishment.  Alternatively, to dream of a celebration, symbolizes freedom  and emotional release.  Celebration dreams are common for those who anticipate an upcoming  turning point or event in their waking life.*
*To see the sun in your dream, symbolizes peace of mind, enlightenment, tranquility, fortune, goodwill, and insight. It also represents radiant energy and divine power. Generally, the sun is a good omen, especially if the sun is shining in your dream. The sun may also be a metaphor for your "son".*
*To feel warmth in your dream, signifies contentment and satisfaction in your current state. You are happy with where you are. Alternatively, feeling warmth is analogous to hope and unconditional love.*
*To dream that you found something, suggests that you are coming into contact with some aspect of your psyche or unconscious. You are recognizing a part of yourself that was previously repressed or undeveloped. Alternatively, it represents change.*
*Dreams of falling teeth are the most common dreams that Dream Moods receives. The typical dream scenarios include having your teeth crumble in your hands, fall out one by one with just a light tap, grow crooked or start to rot. Such dreams are not only horrifying and shocking, but they often leave you with a lasting image of the dream. So what does it mean?  

One theory is that dreams about your teeth reflect your anxieties about your appearance and how others perceive you. Your teeth help to convey an image of attractiveness and play an important role in the game of flirtation, whether it is flashing those pearly white, kissing or necking. Thus, such dreams may stem from a fear of rejection, sexual impotence or the consequences of getting old. To support this notion, a dream research found that women in menopause report to have frequent dreams about teeth. This points to teeth dreams as being related to getting older and/or feeling unattractive and less feminine. Teeth are an important feature to your attractiveness and how you are presented to others. Caring about how you look is natural and healthy.  Another rationalization for these falling teeth dreams may be rooted in your fear of being embarrassed or making a fool of yourself in some situation. These dreams are an over-exaggeration of your worries and anxieties. Perhaps you feel that you are unprepared for the task at hand. However, you will find that your worries are unfounded in most cases. Sometimes what plays out in your mind is far worse than what is reality.

Teeth are used to bite, tear, chew and gnaw. In this regard, teeth symbolize power. And the loss of teeth in your dream may be from a sense of powerlessness. Are you lacking power in some current situation? Perhaps you are having difficulties expressing yourself or getting your point across. You feel frustrated when your voice is not being heard. You may be experiencing feelings of inferiority and a lack of self-confidence in some situation or relationship in your life. This dream may be an indication that you need to be more assertive and believe in the importance of what you have to say.

Traditionally, it was thought that dreaming that you did not have teeth, represent malnutrition or poor diet. This notion may still be applicable to some dreamers.

Other Perspectives

A scriptural interpretation for bad or falling teeth indicates that you are putting your faith, trust, and beliefs in what man thinks, rather than in the word of God. The bible says that God speaks once, yea twice in a dream or a vision in order to hide pride from us, to keep us back from the pit, to open our ears (spiritually) and to instruct and correct us.

In the Greek culture, when you dream about loose, rotten, or missing teeth, it indicates that a family member or close friend is very sick or even near death.

According to the Chinese, there is a saying that your teeth will fall out if you are telling lies.

It has also been said that if you dream of your teeth falling out, then it symbolizes money. This is based on the old tooth fairy story. If you lose a tooth and leave it under the pillow, a tooth fairy would bring you money.
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Reoccurring elements? More recently have been the Beach, Sun, Warmth and My teeth falling out. Not sure but my teeth falling out I think might have something to do with why my jaw hurts this morning and has been for a few days. Thinking maybe while I was seeing this, I was clenching my jaw to keep them in? Not sure but very strange. I need a new mouth guard for sure.
Lets see what my next couple nights have to offer.
Thanks for Reading =)

Friday, February 18, 2011

Last Night's Dream

So last night dream was a reel of sequences. Short bursts of scenes that all created some story. From what I remember: island, sun, children, motorcycle, vines, basketball court, atrium, grocery store, monsters, red wagon, & spiders. Oh and teeth; my teeth were falling out.
*To see or dream that you are on an island, signifies ease, relaxation and comfort. The dream is telling you that you need a vacation and escape the stresses in your life. It is time for some solitude.*
*To see the sun in your dream, symbolizes peace of mind, enlightenment, tranquility, fortune, goodwill, and insight. It also represents radiant energy and divine power. Generally, the sun is a good omen, especially if the sun is shining in your dream. The sun may also be a metaphor for your "son".*
*To see children in your dream, signify an aspect of yourself and your childlike qualities. You may be retreating back to a childlike state and longing for the past. You are trying to still satisfy repressed desires and unfulfilled hopes. Perhaps there is something that you need to see grow and nurture. Take some time off and cater to the inner child within. Alternatively, the dream may be highlighting your innocence, purity, simplicity, and carefree attitude.*
*To see or ride a motorcycle in your dream, symbolizes your desire for freedom and need for adventure. You may be trying to escape from some situation or some other responsibility in your waking life. Alternatively, a motorcycle is symbolic of raw sexuality. Perhaps you are moving too fast.*
*To see vines in your dream, represent your hopes, ambitious thoughts or ideas. Alternatively, vines symbolize a clingy relationship. Perhaps you feel trapped and are searching to break free. Your emotions could be holding you back.*
*Basketball court isn't in there ... i wasn't in a courtroom infront of a judge nor did i see a ball.*
*Atrium isn't in there either ... *
*To dream that you are in a market, represents some emotional or physical need that you are currently lacking in your life. You may be in need of nurturance and some fulfillment. Consider the specific items that you are shopping for. Alternatively, the market signifies frugality. 
To see an barren market in your dream, signifies depression and gloominess. There is a void in your life. If the market is large or well-stocked, then it means possibilities and choices.*
*To dream that you are chased or followed by a monster, represents aspects of yourself that you find repulsive and ugly. You may possess some fears or some repressed emotions. Try to confront the monster in your dream and figure out who or what aspect of yourself the monster represents.*
*To see a red wagon in your dream, represents childhood joy and light-hearted fun.*
*To see a spider in your dream, indicates that you are feeling like an outsider in some situation. Or perhaps you want to keep your distance and stay away from an alluring and tempting situation.  The spider is also symbolic of feminine power or an overbearing mother figure in your life. Alternatively, a spider refers to a powerful force protecting you against  your self-destructive behavior. If you kill a spider in your dream, then it symbolizes misfortune and bad luck. To dream that you are bitten by a spider, represents a conflict with your mother or some dominant female figure in your life. The dream may be a metaphor for a devouring mother or the feminine power to possess and entrap. Perhaps you are feeling trapped by some relationship.*
*Dreams of falling teeth are the most common dreams that Dream Moods receives. The typical dream scenarios include having your teeth crumble in your hands, fall out one by one with just a light tap, grow crooked or start to rot. Such dreams are not only horrifying and shocking, but they often leave you with a lasting image of the dream. So what does it mean?

One theory is that dreams about your teeth reflect your anxieties about your appearance and how others perceive you. Your teeth help to convey an image of attractiveness and play an important role in the game of flirtation, whether it is flashing those pearly white, kissing or necking. Thus, such dreams may stem from a fear of rejection, sexual impotence or the consequences of getting old. To support this notion, a dream research found that women in menopause report to have frequent dreams about teeth. This points to teeth dreams as being related to getting older and/or feeling unattractive and less feminine. Teeth are an important feature to your attractiveness and how you are presented to others. Caring about how you look is natural and healthy.

Another rationalization for these falling teeth dreams may be rooted in your fear of being embarrassed or making a fool of yourself in some situation. These dreams are an over-exaggeration of your worries and anxieties. Perhaps you feel that you are unprepared for the task at hand. However, you will find that your worries are unfounded in most cases. Sometimes what plays out in your mind is far worse than what is reality.

Teeth are used to bite, tear, chew and gnaw. In this regard, teeth symbolize power. And the loss of teeth in your dream may be from a sense of powerlessness. Are you lacking power in some current situation? Perhaps you are having difficulties expressing yourself or getting your point across. You feel frustrated when your voice is not being heard. You may be experiencing feelings of inferiority and a lack of self-confidence in some situation or relationship in your life. This dream may be an indication that you need to be more assertive and believe in the importance of what you have to say.

Traditionally, it was thought that dreaming that you did not have teeth, represent malnutrition or poor diet. This notion may still be applicable to some dreamers.

Other Perspectives

A scriptural interpretation for bad or falling teeth indicates that you are putting your faith, trust, and beliefs in what man thinks, rather than in the word of God. The bible says that God speaks once, yea twice in a dream or a vision in order to hide pride from us, to keep us back from the pit, to open our ears (spiritually) and to instruct and correct us.

In the Greek culture, when you dream about loose, rotten, or missing teeth, it indicates that a family member or close friend is very sick or even near death.

According to the Chinese, there is a saying that your teeth will fall out if you are telling lies.

It has also been said that if you dream of your teeth falling out, then it symbolizes money. This is based on the old tooth fairy story. If you lose a tooth and leave it under the pillow, a tooth fairy would bring you money.
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I love my dreams ...

Friday, February 4, 2011

D R E A M S *2.1.11-2.3.11*

Ok so over the last couple nights I've had some interesting dreams.
I try to remember them so the next day I can look what what they are symbolizing in my sub-conscience mind. I always say I'm gonna start doing daily blogs but that never happens. But I'm gonna try hard this time to continue with it. So here it goes....
2 Days/3 Nights ago (Tuesday Night): from what I remember clearly, I was dancing. I was learning a series of dance moves from someone. So I was dancing alone, then with someone else and then with a group of people.
*To dream that you are dancing, signifies freedom from any constraints and restrictions. Your life is in balance and in harmony. Dancing also represents frivolity, happiness, gracefulness, sensuality and sexual desires. You need to incorporate these qualities in your waking life.*
*To dream that you are dancing with a partner, signifies intimacy and a union of the masculine and feminine aspects of yourself. If you are leading, then it indicates that you are in control of your personal life. It could also mean that you are being overly aggressive and assertive.*
The other part of my dream that was significant enough for me to remember was Lilies, Tiger Lilies. 1 really big one; but instead of it being the normal orange and freckles, it was a crimson color and freckles.
*To see lilies in your dream, symbolize tranquility, spirituality, faith, peace, purity, joy and bliss. It is also connected mourning.*
1 Day/2 Nights ago (Wednesday Night): I remember laughter, and warm sunshine, and joy but my surrounding was that of a country road in the country side. It felt amazing!
*To dream of the countryside, suggests that you are seeking a simpler way of life. You need to take some time for yourself to relax and free your mind. Alternatively, it indicates a sense of freedom and/or openness that is lacking in your daily life.* 
*To hear laughing or dream that you are laughing, suggests that you need to lighten up and let go of your problems.  Don't put so much pressure on yourself. Laughing is also a sign of joyous release and pleasure....*
*To see the sun in your dream, symbolizes peace of mind, enlightenment, tranquility, fortune, goodwill, and insight. It also represents radiant energy and divine power. Generally, the sun is a good omen, especially if the sun is shining in your dream. The sun may also be a metaphor for your "son".*
1 Night ago/Last Night (Thursday Night): It was very vibrant that's for sure. I'm not going to go into full detail cuz that would take forever, but the main parts that I can remember (in order that they happened) are: Sunny beach, old classmates, party, dogs, tsunami, tunnel, old building, vampire zombies, (I woke up to someone telling me) "I love you" and feeling shocked (in the dream not when I woke up). Strange huh? It was...I don't really have many words to describe how I was feeling in this dream. The zombies weren't that dead looking. They were pale, with hair made of wet slicked back grass, and sucked blood. It wasn't a nightmare, I can say that much. After it turned from being sunny and bright to being sort of gloomy I didn't feel scared or alone or sad. 
*To see the beach in your dream, symbolizes the meeting between your two states of mind. The sand is symbolic of the rational and mental processes while the water signifies the irrational, unsteady, and emotional aspects of yourself. It is a place of transition between the physical/material and the spiritual.
To dream that you are looking toward the beach, suggests that you are returning to what is familiar to you. Alternatively, you may be adapting or accepting to the changes and circumstances in your life.*
*To see old classmates in your dream, indicate that you need to draw on your old associations with your former classmates to gain insight in some current relationship. It represents a past lesson that you have learned and is applicable in some aspect of your waking life now.*
*To dream that you are at a party, suggests that you need to get out more and enjoy yourself. If the party is a bad one, then it indicates that you are unsure of your social skills. If you dream that you are at your own birthday party, then it represents appreciation of the life you have.*
*To see a dog in your dream, symbolizes intuition, loyalty, generosity, protection, and fidelity. The dream suggests that your strong values and good intentions will enable you to go forward in the world and bring you success. The dream dog may also represent someone in your life who exhibits these qualities. Alternatively, to see a dog in your dream, indicates a skill that you may have ignored or forgotten. If the dog is vicious and/or growling, then it indicates some inner conflict within yourself. It may also indicate betrayal and untrustworthiness. If the dog is dead or dying, then it means a loss of a good friend or a deterioration of your instincts.*
*To see a tsunami in your dream, means that you are being overwhelmed by some repressed feeling or unconscious material that is rising up to the surface. You are experiencing some unhappiness and emotional instability in a waking situation.*
*To see a tunnel in your dream, represents the vagina, womb, and birth. Thus it may refer to a need for security and nurturance.
To dream that you are going through a tunnel, suggests that you are exploring aspects of your unconscious. You are opening yourself to a brand new awareness. Alternatively, it indicates your limited perspective as in the phrase "tunnel vision". Are you being close minded or narrow minded in some issue?*
*To see a building in your dream, represents the self and the body. How high you are in the building indicates a rising level of understanding, awareness or success. If you are in the lower levels of the building, then it refers to more primal attitudes and/or sexuality.
To see a building in ruins or damaged, indicates that your approach toward a situation or relationship is all wrong. You need to change. Your own self-image may have suffered and taken some blow.*
*To see a vampire in your dream, symbolizes seduction and sensuality, as well as fear and death. The vampire represents contrasting images of civilized nobility and aggression/ferocity. It may depict someone in your waking life whose charm may ultimately prove harmful. Deep down inside, you know that this person is bad for you, yet you are still drawn to him or her. Vampires also sometimes relate to decisions about sex and losing your virginity. Alternatively, to see a vampire suggests that you are feeling physically or emotionally drained. The vampire may also be symbolic of someone who is addicted to drugs or someone in an obsessive relationship.
To see or dream that you are a zombie, suggests that you are physically and/or emotionally detached from people and situations that are currently surrounding you. You are feeling out of touch. Alternatively, a zombie means that you are feeling dead inside. You are just going through the motions of daily living.
To dream that you are attacked by zombies, indicate that you are feeling overwhelmed by forces beyond your control. You are under tremendous stress in your waking life. Alternatively, the dream represents your fears of being helpless and overpowered.*
Ok so trying to find out why I heard, "I love you" almost immediately before I woke up, seems harder to find than I would have thought. The website that I use to depict my dreams (dreammoods.com) doesn't really have anything on it about hearing words or phrases in dreams. I found something on hearing but that only explains to a dream where people can't hear you. Also something on Love, but that doesn't really help either. I wasn't in love or feeling love, I was hearing it
*To dream that you receive a shock, represents a sudden awakening and new awareness.*

I feel the more we know about what we dream about and what it really means, which is not always literal, helps us more understand ourselves and the feelings that we don't always listen to when we are awake. The more we know the more we can fully understand ourselves as a whole, both good and bad; negative and positive; awake and asleep; physical and emotional.
Reading what I am really dreaming about, to be completely honest, makes complete sense! I can definitely understand what is really going on in my mind and I know what I have to do, and what I have to change. 

Thursday, January 20, 2011

January 19, 2011

Ok what should i talk about today? Well the year started off kinda bad. I was stood up by someone I had been talking to for a few months. said we were going to vegas. yea he never showed up. i ended up in hollywood with a person that i can't stand. i rolled off my new black 4" heels at the club, hurt my ankle kinda bad, i couldn't get drunk and i was irritated the whole night.
it's been a month and a day since I've talked to James. My gut is telling me that everything is fine but i can't help but worry about him. it's hard not to worry when you love someone so much. i worried myself into a head cold. i just want my gut to be right. i don't want to find out something horrible happened and feel terrible about it. i've been told that i should give up on him, but a long time ago i told him i would never give up on him. not ever! he told me that i'm the only person who has stuck by his side this long. i can still hear him asking me why i'm still around after all the shit he's put me thru. i always tell him, no matter what life throws our way no matter what happens i will always love you no matter what happens. nothing will ever break that. so from talking to him every weekend and inbetween here and there to nothing, my heart breaks. he told me when we first started talking again, months ago, that he didn't want to break my heart. he doesn't ever want me to feel heartbroken because of him. but that'll never happen until him and i are back together. i want to be back with him more than i can put into words. thank god i have good girl friends. i have come to realize that the girls that i have chosen to be my bffs are in my life for good reason. i lost a 9 year friendship over something stupid and i don't ever talk to that person.  I have LR, MT, & KD and all 3 are important in my world for one reason or another and all 3 are vastly different from eachother. LR and i always go out and have fun regardless what it is. I feel like i can tell her everything but sometimes i don't. MT and i have known eachother for years now but get this, we have never met. Sounds kinda funky huh? She knows all about James and I and all the boys that have been in my life and the ones that have left. I feel like her and i are one sometimes. KD and i have known eachother for about6 years and we met thru a friend. Her and i have so much fun together, and we plan on moving out of our parents house into an apt together in the next 6-8 months. her and i live a good life both dog lovers, both lovers of men and women both lovers of big boobs and booty and we both have that one guy in our lives that we would do anything for. we both have some great ideas for money making and hope things will fall into place. altho we all know that life never goes as planned. we both want to loose weight and get into shape. we both know how well we could look. On a diff note, i've been sick for the last few days which is the first cold of the year, but the 4th or 5th cold i've had in a row and i know it's cuz of my inactivity. which sux!  and i need to change that. i need toget out of this hole that i've been stuck in for so long. it's depressing beyond belief. and i feel like no one gets it. my mom is always riding my ass to get a job, and loose some weight and get out in the world. don't get me wrong i want all of those things. i want to be a smaller size, i want to be able to go to w/e store i want and not have to worry that they don't have my size. i want to be able to wear what i want no matter what cuz i can. i hate being sick. i hate the achy feelings and the not being able to keep food in my system. i can't wait to have my bday! and get prego and finally be able to afford a personal trainer. i want to be able to get out there and do what i want. i think a lot of this stems from when i was rejected by the Coast Guard at the end of my Senior year of HS. after they rejected me, i kinda broke inside. i remember walking to the car with my mom in tears. I wanted to be in the military so bad. then i tried again and again a 3rd time and every time my weight was a problem. you would never know that my weight bothered me cuz i always wear a smile and i'm upbeat and i crack jokes but on the inside that not many ppl see, i'm bitter, and depressed and i hate how big i've gotten. i hate how my sister did just about nothing and lost so much weight and it was nothing for her. i hate who my youngest sister has this tight little body and yet has bigger boobs than i do. she says i have it so easy, but in reality if she had to deal with what i have to deal with on the reg i bet you anything she would explode. i hate when i try to loose weight, i loose it and then when i hear soemone say that i've lost weight (i feel good about it don't get me wrong) and that i look good, i tend to stop trying to loose the weight and i gain it all back. it's something i've never been able to break. its kinda like kryptonite in a way. i remember when i started working out every day, i kept a food diary where i wrote down everything i ate and drank and i had so much energy, it felt amazing! but i feel like i need a work out buddy cuz i can't stick to anything alone. i don't like doing anything alone to begin with. i have this idea in my head of where i want to be in 5-10 years and at the rate i'm going right now i'll never get there. at one point it was to be in hte military just enjoying the entire experience, but that'll never happen. i need to get my life back and put together. i feel like my life is in pieces, scattered all over. its true you can't love anyone and have anyone love you if you don't love yourself. i love myself sometimes, so according to that, i can have ppl in my life who love me sometimes. i love horoscopes! i follow them all the time. i want to be under 200 lbs; i would love to stay at 170 the res of my life. i love having a big booty. if i don't see instant change i loose interest ... sucky huh? it's so much cheaper and easier to be fat. its hard and expensive to be skinny. as much as i'm ok with being the size i am right now i want to be the size i was back in HS.  it can happen i know it can.

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

New Year New Outlook

Ok so i'm starting to realize who in my life is worth keeping ... DP i thought was good to stay but recently, actually about an hour ago, she apparently couldn't take a joke.
GS i'm thinking is out for good ... prego and still owes me money
KD is in for sure ... her and i have planned to move out together in the next 6-8 months ... me, Charlie, Jack, KD, & Eddie ...
MT is i know in ... her and i have been thru so much
MM is out .. fk her ... her AB & SH
fuck them bitches
as far as guys go ... there are some new ones some brand new ones and some oldies but goodies
JH is styaing i'll never stop talking to that one
JB he's back and i'm not sure
NA he's kinda crazy and i'm still trying to figure it out
DT is brand new and hes pretty sexy
RM is on my shit list forever
D is another new one who i think is just so cute
DF is still i the pic and comes around every once in a while
T is new and i can't believe we did shit together ... thats a secret i'll never tell
J is new-ish and has bought me shoes ... gotta love him lol

as of right now i'm exhausted ... my eyes are trying so hard to stay open and watch this new episode of CSI Miami ....
ok finished .. good episode ... and my phone won't stop bing-ing why does spam always to your email at like well this time 2-6am lol
so its almost 5am ... i'm super tired and watching Jimmy Dore on CC lol

here is a little something i posted up on FB about how i was feeling earlier with the situation with DP
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So I'm bitter huh? Deal with it ... I can be bitter if i damn well feel like it ... i have freedom of speech if you don't like it don't read/listen to it...
its not that serious
jealous? lol of what
what is there to be jealous about
hes a dink, an asshole and a punk ass bitch who puts his hands on you
and you act all big bad and strong but can't leave him cuz of how you feel?
yea i'm jealous of that
gee i wish i had a friend who cared enough about me that she would tell me when things are fkn up
o wait you do ... you've got me and all i hear from you is blah blah blah things have changed ...
news flash no they haven't
you are still always over there, still always with him still doing shit for him ...
he still uses you for sex, even tho you say you use him for sex ... please ... i know the rules i revamped the rules i rewrote the rules
but i have come to the conclusion that no matter what i say you are going to ignore what i have to say about the situation and i'm done talking ... you are grown and can make your own decisions ...
if you wont listen to my advice then so be it ... but don't come running to me when you are back fighting with him and he's makin you cry or he puts his hands on u ...
i thought i was ur best friend but obviously i'm not if you are coming at me the way you are ...
you know i'm a smart ass and i'm gonna say what i want .. regardless if anyone wants to hear it ... i really don't give a shit if what i say offends anyone ... you can't handle how i am then leave ... i don't need ppl like that in my life taking up sacred space for the ones who are to come and fill those spaces
..."
i made it so only 2 ppl can see it and someone def cant ...
wow i js had a mini dream llol crazy ... anywho i'm  goig to bed .. tmro will be better i know it

Monday, June 7, 2010

Comedy is the best form of anything

Ok so I know I was going to start logging in with movie reviews, and yes I know I haven't posted up anything but I have another idea.
Since I love comedy, I figured I would write some reviews on the Comedians that I like and their specials that I have seen. Right now I'm watching Dave Chappelle live from D.C.
I've only seen this one a couple of times, but I downloaded it a bunch of times (mainly cuz of the clean out of the hard drive).
In this one he talks about how DC has changed, thugs and white guys, police, Sesame Street, & Weed of course.
Kevin Hart: I'm Grown